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Desultory Introductions
01:31
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only love is for blood and bone
the flesh is here to burn out in the sun
turn my ashes to stained glass
spare a rib and carve something nice
only want to take ecstasy
to feel i’m in the song where he says baby
though my eyes are just as dark
as his lovers’, i just lack sleep
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2. |
Trepanation
04:08
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spirits talk inside
a house where you’ll lie tomorrow’s
on the countryside
the only motherfucker who sees right past their guise
when the head spins back
to the present moment you will
taste it in a flash
although i am here now it is numb
dull and dumb
i won’t know i’m anxious
till days worth of chaliced lips accumulate
spiders just crawl
into your mouth
you don’t care to fish them out
autumn darkness came
to curl my smile once again it’s
cruel to kiss in rain
for i’m too be alone with ghosts as friends
we formed a band
wide and absinthe eyed
the cat stared across the country
as calves on an evening graze
were gently were lifted into outer space
they won’t know they’re up there
or will they
guess it’s not my place to say
the farmers dead wife
haunts the small knife
he uses to to pick his teeth
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3. |
Grinding Down
05:59
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i could feel it stir again but
guess i wouldn’t know
i’ll shut up and crawl back in
try to live from here
hoarding love and loathing like they’re one
can’t speak if i don’t peel my skin
you swat my hand away
you’ve really don’t it now
are you proud
are you helping me
well here i am your foolish friend
a subject you can save
pull my arm as strangers come
my body’s in the way
blood and thunder scenes keep playing over in my head
eyes are fragile in your skull but
the teeth are tough as hell
though not if you keep grinding them down
don’t sleep cuz i still
hear the sighs
i didn’t do it right
i won’t go outside
are you proud
am i better now
here i am your precious kid
i’ll suck it up cuz my
symptoms are just cowardice
i’m completely fine
i’ll just be the foolish friend
a subject to be saved
and you can count on me to be
forever in the way
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4. |
The Fortress
03:55
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there are several dancers in my eyes
in the center, the one i most despise
watch them go
and leap around like laughter
bouncing off these cold stone walls
there is no real way to tell in the static if the dark
the you trapped in my impaired eyesight won’t rest still as they bleed
we fell into new eras, laugh it off
but i am found still caught in raging thoughts
of your demise
just guess who poured the poison in your chalice
held high
i’ll build some fortress
high above toxic skies
with bricks held together by
mostly just ash and wine
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5. |
Storms
03:48
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Tonight I flatline
Couldn’t claw into an uninfected room
Hands scraped
Vainy landscape
Oh so easily
You could cut and see
Disease
Skin
deep
but i’ll ink it up
clean the blood
and dispose with care and grief
Conjure
A high to feed all night
cured the blind
an athame to the eyes
A banshee
Grinding her teeth
Came to fly over my home last nignt
It’s not quite time
cuz when it comes i’ll have overdosed
on the thought you won’t get close to
thunderbolts between my teeth
i want you desperate to see
then i die seven more times
there’s a screaming party in the sky
cuz i’m that storm that leaves you wide eyed
sprawl out on the soaking earth await my strike
cuz i know what you like
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6. |
Palms to Sockets
05:27
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I climbed up to the roof and nearly slept
the bite of winter in my chest
so content
the wishful breeze tracing violet skin
sure there’s some sweet magic there
but none that i can claim
it’s like i feel your pulsing from across the sky
it might be real this time
i’m rarely so damn tired, please no take it back,
sleeps never been to kind
in claustrophobic cryonic dreams i begin to reach things that he has lived and so has she
they’ve all got it on me
i’m lying to a blind man and his dog
seems they’ll never care that much
so why bring it up
wish i could be so crass so nonchalant
think i’m some sick altruist chewing toxic chalk
but is all of that care and love a ruse?
quite sure i like me more than you
think i’ve over thought this please no take it back
there’s no more left to chew
as the poison cuts into me i begin to face things that he can’t see and she can’t flee
they’ve all got nothing on me
sleep is an abyss, i spin and plummet down
but waking up as this is a horror in itself
and in the end i’ll look at what i’ve done
palms to sockets, not again
it wasn’t even fun
i’m a silver ember and you’re a smoke filled room
my glow barely cuts through you
i dare not think i’m handsome no i’m clearly meant to smother under it
you could tend to my flame but why do that
from across the room i’m
a soul sucking vampire bat
i think i’m finally dying
my blood is silver cold
ive never slept quite right
and always been too old
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7. |
Imposters
08:06
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a creature of the dark their sleepy eyes caught mine
lived inside them for a time
but i bore so easy
flecks of light through black out drapes
i can’t help seeing faces
pulse it stops and lungs fill up with
a substance grossly tranquil
..is this it?
you bled me out and said i look much better now
well i’m leaving. don’t get all broken up over no one
i’m visionless and all my friends are two holes and a sheet
and the only thought is to light them up before they could ever scare me
but as it burns whats under is much worse i should have known
you wear their faces and use their voices
i can’t tell the difference anymore
snuck out into the dark
the stars tore up your tongue
and i’d like to join them
shut you up
just listen for once
but what if i become an omen
often feared, misinterpreted
see my eyes are turning bright
in the shadows i’m a vague outline
and when your eyes adjust to it
your ribs will turn to lead
a figure burned into your head well
you’ll never be alone again i guess
(i am not a strain, nor am I empty)
you’ll never be alone again I guess
(i have yet to believe it but give it time)
you’ll never be alone again I guess
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8. |
Desultory Conclusions
01:47
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in love with some potential future you
the present can fuck off
think i hate you in this moment
the glass it starts to crack
the cold creeps in
i smile as you freeze to death
if i live in fear of anything
its tending to become what i am making
cuz if it’s nothing then i must be too
you useless fuck
why’d you think you had it in you ?
i am a silver smith, but i’m a clone
crafted every useless thing you own
so i pawned them off to someone clueless
thought you’d be so relived
why are you crying ?
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